So I have been doing allot of thinking lately, and it has actually not been a bad thing. In my minds eye I can clearly see what I want to become, to achieve. I look in the mirror and I do not see it yet.
Taking emotion out of the equation I know in my heart of hearts that in 7 weeks I still will not be there. So, do I continue on and compete knowing that I am not at my best?? but at what point do you stop and go hell for leather anyway and just see where you end up?
I have come a long way in 8 years and I still have a long way to go, I am learning to be patient, and I know that if I do the work and stick to the plan I will be rewarded. Its just a matter of time.
I have a great coach, in fact I have had a few people in my past who have see something that I have not for a long time. But you know what, I can finally say that I do see it...that's why I cannot give up.
I'm not suggesting that I am a future world champion or anything like that, but I have potential, so does everybody. I'm just ready to grab a hold and see where it takes me. I'm on a winner here, my mindset (although somewhat distracted at times in the past) is coming to the party and I am ready to do the work. EVEN if it takes me another few months or years.
It doesn't matter anymore if my progress photos show a body that isn't where it should be, or if the scales don't come down in the appropriate increments, I'm not going to think I cannot make it, I don't want to be told I cannot make it because it doesn't matter, I know I'm going to get there. Failure cannot handle persistence...I have a coach that is pretty cool, clients that have my back, a lovely family and somewhat balanced attitude...well...today anyway ;)
that's enough motivational emotional crap, I'm off to eat! have a great week and remember..it just takes one person to believe in you unconditionally. Be someones one person :)