Thinking to much!

So I have been doing allot of thinking lately, and it has actually not been a bad thing. In my minds eye I can clearly see what I want to become, to achieve. I look in the mirror and I do not see it yet.

Taking emotion out of the equation I know in my heart of hearts that in 7 weeks I still will not be there. So, do I continue on and compete knowing that I am not at my best?? but at what point do you stop and go hell for leather anyway and just see where you end up?

I have come a long way in 8 years and I still have a long way to go, I am learning to be patient, and I know that if I do the work and stick to the plan I will be rewarded. Its just a matter of time.

I have a great coach, in fact I have had a few people in my past who have see something that I have not for a long time. But you know what, I can finally say that I do see it...that's why I cannot give up.

I'm not suggesting that I am a future world champion or anything like that, but I have potential, so does everybody. I'm just ready to grab a hold and see where it takes me. I'm on a winner here, my mindset (although somewhat distracted at times in the past) is coming to the party and I am ready to do the work. EVEN if it takes me another few months or years.

In summary...

It doesn't matter anymore if my progress photos show a body that isn't where it should be, or if the scales don't come down in the appropriate increments, I'm not going to think I cannot make it, I don't want to be told I cannot make it because it doesn't matter, I know I'm going to get there. Failure cannot handle persistence...I have a coach that is pretty cool, clients that have my back, a lovely family and somewhat balanced attitude...well...today anyway ;)

that's enough motivational emotional crap, I'm off to eat! have a great week and remember..it just takes one person to believe in you unconditionally. Be someones one person :)

Its official, Im a really CRAPPY blogger!

SORRY......
lol, I know its been a while since I have been on here, but I have been busy!! lots going on at the moment.

This Saturday See's me 8 weeks out from my comp. Thats if my White African boomba butt comes to the party.

Coach says I would still be "good enough" to get up there, but honestly...who wants to be just good enough?? So I'm busting nuts to to see how I am looking at five weeks out. If I'm not happy, I will not be getting up there. Ill wait to when I become what I see in my minds eye.

Honestly I spent so much time worrying about everyone else, and what they would think If pulled out...but I can to a great conclusion......fuck em! lol.

I will be on stage this year, there is no doubt about that, cause I'm close now. But when..... so the next four weeks See's me going crazy on the stepper...sprinting...pretty much doing what I can to get where I need to be.

Here is a current progress pic :) on that not, Im off to cardio it up!!

Holidays, Training and Progress

So, as most of you know I am currently in Qld on Holidays so training and diet have been one heck of a challenge!

but I am managing it ok, Im currently 11 weeks out and as always you start to stress a little more about coming in on time. At the moment, Im trying to be smart and not stress about my progress. I know I have quite a bit of body fat to shift still and my god damn stinking weight is just not budging, be effed if I know why!!!!

So for now I am just going day by day and hopefully in 75 days I come up trumps :)

12 week out comparison shots

12 weeks out 2009

                                                                 12 weeks out 2010

So there is quite an amount of growth in this time frame but as you can see condition wise, I am pretty much on par. Which is crap, so I need to get my conditioning spot onski's!

Ha ha Ari in the background looks like a stung mullet, poor kid...not thee best view for her from behind, lol.

Off  to Qld on Thursday morning for a whole week of awesome training and time with my gorgeous two sisters!! excited MUCH!!

Then its off to Melbourne for the FITX exhibition. Busy, busy!!

My Fabulous coach has organised me tickets to prejuding for the figure international and he is the host for my FAV athlete Erin Stern..... he's gunna get an autograph for me... o yeahhh!  he will have a terribly hard time looking after her Im sure.

Till next time,

T.

82 days...but who's counting...

ME. lol

this week brings me 12 weeks out from comp and Im a little apprehensive. I am in simular condition that I was in at 12 weeks out last time I competed, which is not good enough.

Coach says now Im a little under the pump, which is ok. Im just taking it a day at a time. Its so important to keep positive. So thats exactly what I m doing!

Cardio intensity has been increased...this morning I was doing stair sprints and pushed myself so hard I was nearly sick. Then is was off to the gym and a little more stepper!

Im not having any more free meals from now on, which will help me stay more focused. I really wannt present something different on stage this year, and I will ;)

I start carb cycling next week and boy am I ready for a slight change in diet, broccoli has been making me gag!

I will post some pics in a week so u guys can have a peek at the progress :)

till next time,
T,

90 days out!

Finally got under the 80kg mark, lordy that was BS!! but I have lost 6.8kg's in 7 weeks tomorrow. I will NEVER have 3 months off AGAIN!

I have been asked a few questions so here goes.

I have been Body shaping/building for roughly 31/2 years, before that I was an endurance athlete and competed in half marathons etc, so muscles were not really that important or that appealing to me.

Genetically I think I am lucky, although I have worked BLOODY hard I do have the ability to gain decent muscle.

Genetics are a BIG factor although you can drastically change your shape through CONSISTENT weight training. Its such a big myth that you will get huge, and even though this is coming to light people still dont realise how impossible it is for women to gain allot if muscle without the aid of drugs.

Allot of people assume because they see pictures of you onstage that you walking around looking like that...its not possible, the posing alone makes you look like a different person. When competing you cannot underestimate the importants of posing, as ridiculous as hearing "front double bicep...and strike" may sound...if your a shit poser and you cannot manipulate you body into its best shape without a mirror, forget it... you may be lean and have a great shape, but if you cant show it off properly the judges wont really look at you.

People also assume that you get HUGE...SOOOOOOO not that case, you get TINY! really TINY you would be very surprised! any hoo on that note Ill leave you with my favourite chickas

top- erin stern
bottom - maggie duibaldo - the woman who inspired me 3 years ago- check out her pics on her website! beautiful!

progress photos

So the title says it all!!

Took some progress shots today and I can finally see some change ;)
My food has been cut back bit too this week so I am hoping in about 4 weeks there will be some BETTER improvements.

I was starving today and anyone who has competed before knows that sometimes its hard to tell if its a psychological or physiological thing?? you just gotta grin and bear it!!

Here are the shots...embarrassing much!! owell, lol

First shot 6 weeks ago

 Most recent

Long way to go....... looooong way to go, but happy none the less :)